My twenty year high school reunion was last year. Okay I just dated myself but honestly, I don’t care. I’m not that old. That’s what I keep telling myself, and it seems to be working. I still ride my skateboard, play in the surf and sand and this past Saturday I was even watching cartoons. Avengers. I wouldn’t say that I’m an immature (cough, cough) thirty something…I just haven’t grown up yet.
So anyway, my twenty year reunion. I didn’t go.
There are some really wonderful people that went to my high school. There are some people that still think they are IN high school. Either way, I chose not to go. I have some fond memories of that time, but I’m looking forward.
Not to say that I’ve accomplished everything I wanted to accomplish when I was eighteen. Not even close. In reflecting today on my youth, I’ve come to realize that I’m a late bloomer. Some of that is by choice. I grew up in a neighborhood that had it better than most. And not that people should be ashamed of their success, but some parents don’t know when to tell their children no. I had nice clothing and other things growing up, but my parents weren’t about to fork over a couple hundred bucks every single time the newest shoes or fads came out.
As a result, I learned that having the “latest” isn’t all it’s cracked up to be.
I’d say that I’m better off for the experience. I still enjoy a trend or two. I DO own a dvd player, but you might be surprised to hear that I DON’T own a flat screen television. My old tube TVs work just fine. If and when they don’t, I’ll consider the newest or the latest. I’ll just be late to the party when I do.
Again, I’d say that I’m better off for the experience. I’ve learned in my life to appreciate that which matters most. The relationships I’ve forged over the past twenty years have been built on trust, compassion and common goals and ideals. I don’t have a lot of friends, but the ones I do have I’ll probably have for life. That’s important to me.
I didn’t have that in high school. Some of that was my own fault. Some of the responsibility lies with the people around me. Either way, it doesn’t matter. I wish them all success and happiness.
For me, the past twenty years has been about finding a direction. I started gaining momentum in that area in 2003 with the creation of Formula : Sport. But life got in the way, and well…
The past four years has been a whirlwind. Sometimes it’s felt like a hurricane. The momentum has taken me to great heights and filled me with a sense of purpose. Sometimes it seems all direction in my life has ebbed to the point I don’t know which way is up. The lows can be quite low.
Through it all I’ve learned. I’ve learned what is most important to me and I’ve learned what real accomplishment is all about. Not the superficial accomplishment that others might display at a high school reunion, but the kind that matters. Like accomplishing a lasting legacy.
Today I announced the release of my fourth novel. Fourth, in four years. It seems crazy to even think about it. Four short years ago the idea of writing a novel was scary and intimidating and on some level, impossible. I’d never met anyone (aside from the LEGEND Clive Cussler) that had written a novel. Nobody in my life had achieved such a goal. I’d met a few that said they wanted to…
So here I am, four deep. I released a collection of poems too, to make my total book count five. And though I’m proud of the poetry, for me it’s not the same accomplishment. I could write a four line poem a day for a year and have 365 ½ poems. Writing a novel is a different discipline.
I’m proud of my accomplishment, not only for the completion of the books themselves but for what they represent. They are the legacy I leave behind for my children. And they’re pretty darn good books, if I say so myself. I think my kids will be proud to have these particular books be representative of who I am…for them. I haven’t asked them, but I think they’d be proud.
I am proud, anyway. And though there is part of me that wonders what I might have accomplished by now had I started twenty years ago, I’m okay with the fact that I’m a late bloomer. I think I’m coming along at a time in my life when I can handle all that is necessary for me to handle to accomplish the goals I still have.
Today I’m going to celebrate.
I think this is my best work yet, and I’m happy about that. So I want to take a moment to enjoy the moment. And then it’s back to work. I have a long list of stories to tell. They may not be the trendiest stories, but I think you’re going to love them. So I better get to it, because I’m not getting any younger….
Thank you for being a reader.
I hope this work makes you proud too.
Proud that you’ve chosen to read what I’ve written…