I woke up this morning with a song in my head. It happens quite often, actually. Often the night before I’ve heard something (a phrase, a song, etc.) that will plant the seed. I’m generally not happy with the resulting bloom the following day. I’ve awakened to disco, metal and even really, really bad bubblegum pop. Not that I’ve awakened to disco, metal or really bad bubblegum pop…
Funny thing for me, too, is that I set my alarm to classical music. No, I don’t know Mozart from Handel from Vivaldi, but I do love classical music. For me it’s the perfect music to rise to because it isn’t going to get stuck in my head all day. Plus, I like to think it’s like getting out of bed to a musical score in my own movie. It’s just how I live my life, folks.
Anyway, today I’ve got a good ole fashioned rock and roll song stuck in my head. I didn’t hear it last night, nor do I remember anyone saying anything that might have planted that seed. Regardless, it’s there.
But I think it’s the motivation I needed today.
You see, I haven’t felt creative lately. And it’s been more than a little scary. I was actually joking with my wife recently about my fear that one day I’ll wake up and all of my ideas will be gone. My creative process will have drained and I’ll be left with nothing. I was joking, but there was a lot of truth to it as well. Of course, then I really got scared that even saying something like that was taboo and that I’d certainly been inviting doom. I’ve been a little creatively blocked for about a week. It was happening!!!
But it really wasn’t. I say that because I’m not a superstitious person. And I think to believe something like my creativity suddenly leaving my body is to believe in superstition. I don’t – so it won’t. But that doesn’t mean from time to time I don’t get a little nervous about it. Especially now, when so much is at stake. I woke up this morning singing…
“It’s times like these you learn to live again…”
Over and over again, in my head. The Foo Fighters. Times Like These.
I sat at my desk with a cup of coffee, and began searching the World Wide Web for a source of inspiration. I was looking up pictures, I was looking up quotes. I read a little news. NOTHING. ZIP. NADA. No inspiration.
“It’s times like these you give and give again…”
I sipped my coffee. I reviewed some notes I’d written last week. I thought about my ever growing list of things to do.
“It’s times like these you learn to love again…”
Maybe I am superstitious, I thought to myself. Maybe I have reached the end of my creative journey. Maybe it wasn’t a flame, but a mere spark. Am I really destined to do this?
“It’s times like these, time and time again…”
Am I destined to do this, I asked myself. Destined. That word. Is it like superstition? Something intangible, un-measurable? Is it even possible? Can I believe in destiny and not believe in superstition?
“It’s times like these…”
I had awoken this morning to a new day, a new week, a new opportunity. I had awoken with a new sense of purpose and creativity already filling my heart and soul to give me the motivation to carry on. My day started out different today because it was time to start out different.
I don’t know if I believe in destiny. I still don’t think I believe in superstition. I mean, I didn’t count how many steps I took to my office this morning or whether I put my pants on left leg first or if I brushed my teeth counter-clockwise because it was an odd day or the moon was waning or whatever…
I do know that inspiration comes in mysterious ways. Magically. I know that for whatever reason, struggle is a part of our lives. It is a part of our balance. For me, today, it has helped me appreciate the good moments when I wake up with a song in my head and I feel flushed with ideas and words to share. I hope I can remember that next time I’m struggling to believe this is my path.
It’s times like these I’ve learned to live again.
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Maybe the energies of tonight’s full moon are having an influence on us. I awoke this morning with heavy things on my mind and have been dreaming very strange dreams. And then there’s tomorrow’s Venus transit. Maybe we’re supposed to love ourselves more. In my post for today, I shared what that’s about for me. Be well and stay blessed, Greg, because you ARE.
I’m sure of it…it’s the moon. Ha ha ha! Actually, for me it was one of those valleys that occasionally happens where I try to hard to be creative and everything just seems brpttt….
By the way ~ I checked your site today and there was a bunch of stuff I hadn’t seen. I couldn’t figure out why I wasn’t seeing your blog on my “follow” list and of course it turns out I wasn’t following you. So now I am. As always, you have some AMAZING pictures up there!!
Thanks for stopping in Gina. I really appreciate your comments and well wishes. Have a great day…
And yet look at this wonderful post! 😀
(I’m never at a loss for ideas but this can be such a frustrating burden as well. Not enough lifetime for it all. Sometimes I wish I could just pass out my ideas to lessen the load.)
BUT allow yourself this time. Let your creativity incubate and peculate. Crystallize. Develop. Form. You can’t force it. In the meantime, go work on mindless things. (I “nest” … I clean or pull weeds or … ) Anyhow, respect the process. You’ll know when “it’s time”. 😉
I generally don’t try to force the issue but the past few weeks have been a little different. But I’ve been writing poetry and doing background work on my next book, so I haven’t totally unproductive. I normally do something like housework to get my mind off of being creative, but I’ve been fighting a pinched nerve in my neck and that has rendered me nearly useless as well. If I truly believed I was getting older I’d start to believe that I’m a wreck…ha ha. 🙂 But I know better. I swear I’m still thirteen.
Thanks for your comments!!! Of course, now you’ve forced me to go look up peculate. Ha ha ha…
I hope you have a fantastic week…
OH That’s hilarious! I must stop clicking on spell check without my glasses LOL
But on the other hand … it makes life interesting doesn’t it? 😀
Hope your neck is better !
Thanks Ann, the neck is feeling 100% better!!